Wow, so its been a long time.
Have I missed tumblr? Not exactly. I’ve come to the realisation that I don’t have to document every thought that I have, especially as I tend to think too much. Writing in that sense doesn’t validate a feeling and it certainly doesnt help to figure things out.
So why start again?
Well, I’m blessed at the moment with the ability to not only remember what I had for breakfast but to remember what I did this time last year or even two years ago and with whom. However, this may not always be the case. So from now on, my tumblr page will be my Alzeihmers relief - so at any point in the future I can log back on and remember the good times. It will be a sort of online scrapbook for the things I do and see from now on.
So a lot of things have happened since january, some good, some bad. I had the most awsome times for my brother and sister’s birthdays! Thank god we are now all old enough to be able to go out and celebrate! I’ve had some groovy times with my best friend and her lil man. I had the best holiday away to newquay with some of the best people I have ever met. Then things started to go a bit pear shaped, I lost someone I loved very much. His choice. But heartbreak is a bitch and even now almost two months on, I’m not over it. I’m trying, god I’m trying, but its harder than I ever imagined. There’s no point thinking “what if?” because the past is the past and as much as you might want to - you can’t turn back time. Even now I still get times I miss him, or think of him and I can’t tell him but even if I did I doubt it would make the slightest bit of difference, though I just wish I could tell him that although nobody can go back and start a new beginning, anyone can start today and make a new ending….
Then things got worse; I crashed my lil car!!! So the poor thing is sitting rather forlornly on the drive awaiting its fate. I also finally turned 21 and it was awsome!
And the rest of the time between january and now, during my tumblr hiatus, I have danced, drunk and had me a good time…so here is to documenting the good times from here on out (for when I can no longer remember my name, let alone how I spent the summer of 2010!)
